cowardice

This weekend I was supposed to get a lot of things done, but I've been putting them off because I am reluctant to actually follow through with the plans I made. I don't know if it's really out of being craven, or more that I'm just being kind of selfish and using other people as an excuse. It's pretend selflessness really.

I guess there's still a day left for me to try to build up the nerve to follow through, but, every day is worse than the next and the longer I wait the worse it will be later. I'm not even sure why it was that I made these plans, though I think at this point I'm just rationalizing backing out.