google king

It seems that here at the office I have claimed the title of resident internet winner or something, because I explained how to use google's filetype:### search. Ha.

carmen dating

I was talking with this person the other day, and I mentioned how something reminded me of Carmen Sandiego (Jakarta was the topic of conversation). And then they were like, "what? What's Carmen Sandiego?" And I was dumbstruck. I didn't think I was that old, and for a while, I was just struck that it might be possible for me to be talking to somebody only 4 years my junior and have them not be familiar with the cultural phenomenon that was Carmen Sandiego. I mean, shit, books, computer games, TV show, fucking rockapella, she had a lot of recognition, and I imagine most anybody else I know would know what I'm talking about.

Maybe they just didn't play old computer games or watch TV (it wasn't even a cable show, so that excuse doesn't fly) or something. But the conversation struck me as quite weird.

"It sounds like white noise everywhere, which is like silence but not empty."

The quote is taken from this book, the curious incident of the dog in the night-time which I'm reading now. Mostly on the subway while riding to and from work. Though i've only been to "work" once, and am going for the second and to be honest, hopefully last time tomorrow. it's not that I don't like it. I'd just rather get paid to work. All things considered, I'm thinking I should push harder for this NJ company to at least get in touch with me so I can give myself some sense of closure at least, in that I'll be resigned to working unpaid part time.

That and I don't know for certain if I can pull off keeping myself fed without getting paid at all this Summer, so who knows how this will turn out.

I think I'm going to have to pull myself back from this whole blog situation. I've spent entirely too much time reading other people's, writing comments, and looking for other people I'm vaguely connected to to comment there too. I feel like even if I'm not going crazy, from their points of views, I am acting it.

How do people do it? The whole ongoing communication thing in the absence of email or phones? I pulled it off maybe once, but even that sort of fell apart towards the end.

a friend of a friend

First I apologize for this direct addressing of somebody who may have not wanted to be addressed. Having typed this, I am now regretting having opened with a disclaimer, a preemptive apology, or what have you, but, I don’t believe in the use of the backspace key while blogging unless to correct typos. At least, I don’t really consider that a huge typo. Moving on, this person lauded themselves for having their secret blog but through some trivial guesswork (that is, my first guess was right), I found it, and was promptly confused when I found remarks about how they love getting comments that aren't anonymous, but, if anybody could just google their name and find it, somebody should tell her so she could feel insecure and delete it or hide it better. So if you're reading, it was easy to find, unless, you've outsmarted me completely and it's merely a dummy blog to through people like me off the scent once I've found it. That said, if it's not a red herring, I'll probably comment, not-anonymously, the next time I sit down and actually read it rather than just skimming.

Brevity is not my strong suit. I am spending far too much energy being furtive rather than reading legal journals and other news publications for relevant new items to update the company websites with. Those two sentences were not really related. I am going to stop writing this and finish later while I do laundry tonight.

What is it that you are really asking for when you say you want to read "deeper" things from your friends, which I presumably am not (given that we've only met once and I doubt cake, no matter how much you may have liked it, is enough to gain trust and friendship)? More emotionally and psychologically interesting? Do you seek to analyze your friends so much? Is this some strange notion of concern for your friends? It may not be so strange, but I try to be as uncompassionate as possible, because I have an image of self-absorbedness to keep up. I want to leave comment on your blog, and link to it from here, but I fear that this would be an unwise move because I assume you’ve gone through at least some difficulty in concealing the presence of your blog from the world of would-be readers out there. I guess that makes you the second person whose blog I’ve read in the last couple weeks who probably would have much rather I didn’t.

This unrestrained flow of shit from my mind to the keyboard is something I feel that I should get away from in the future. Bah, do you see what I’ve done here? I’ve gone from addressing somebody else to a monologue about myself. Right, so, there’s this person who wants to read “deeper” things by her friends, one of which I am not. I am not discouraged by this trivial piece of information.

Actually, upon closer reading, I think the remainder of what I was going to write on this topic is far more appropriate as a comment. In fact, I’m just going to stop now and go comment all over other people’s blogs. This silly self-improvement scheme of writing things that are not quite so me-centric can wait.

dear diary
today I lost a lot of money
fuckers.

Physics Final

Well, that final could have gone better. That 15 point problem, I don't think I did so hot on that. Blecchhh. Oh well, next final to worry about now.

survey bandwagon, the first

Instructions: Copy and Paste the following list to your own blog and bold the ones that apply to you. (commentary is encouraged of course)

01. When I was younger, I made some bad decisions
02. I don't watch much TV these days - tv season is over, though I suspect I'll start on my collection of DVDs of tv shows over the summer.
03. I love olives
04. I love sleeping - I was going to say yes to this, but given how much time I spend trying to concoct plans to sleep less, I feel like I'd be lying.
05. I own lots of books
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses
07. I love to play video games
08. I've tried marijuana
09. I've watched porn movies
10. I have been in a threesome
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy
13. I have acne free skin
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton
15. I curse frequently
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have hobbies
18. I've been told I: (women) have an applebottom, (men) am packing.
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me (box cutter, actually.)
20. I'm smart
21. I've never broken someone's bones
22. I have a secret(s) that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I hate the rain
24. I'm paranoid at times - forget "at times".
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
26. I need money right now "Everybody needs money, that's why they call it money."
27. I love Sushi
28. I talk really, really fast
29. I have fresh breath in the morning
30. I have semi-long hair
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
34. I shave my legs (females) or face (males) on a regular basis - Though please note that regular in my case is I suspect far less regular than most. Go go chinese facial hair genes.
35. I have a twin -
36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyes in the past
37. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look.
39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months - Lying is my life.
40. I know how to cornrow
41. I am usually pessimistic
42. I have a lot of mood swings
43. I think prostitution should be legalized
44. I think Britney Spears is hot
45. I have cheated on a Sig. O. in the past - Note that this depends on what you consider "cheating"
46. I have a hidden talent
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
48. I think that I'm popular
49. I am currently single
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex
51. I enjoy talking on the phone
52. I practically live in sweatpants
53. I love to shop
54. I would rather shop than eat
55. I would classify myself as ghetto
56. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders
57. I'm obsessed with my blog
58. I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
59. I'm a pretty good dancer
60. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
62. I have a cell phone
63. I believe in God
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
66. I love drama
67. I have never been in a real relationship before
68. I've rejected someone before
69. I currently have a crush on someone
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
71. I want to have children in the future
72. I have changed a diaper before
73. I've called the cops on a friend before
74. I bite my nails
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
76. I'm not allergic to anything
77. I have a lot to learn
78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex/same sex
81. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved
83. I have tried alcohol or drugs at a party - Who writes this stuff? Middleschoolers? (I jest.)
84. I have made a move on a friend's Sig. O. in the past
85. I own the "South Park" movie
86. I have avoided assignments at work to be online
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
88. I enjoy country music
89. I would die for my best friends - I would die for less I think.
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can - I am considering shows like Desparate Housewives and the OC to be soap operas.
92. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story"
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
98. I have dated a close friend's ex
99. I'm happy as of this moment

Frequency

"We define deception as a deliberate attempt to mislead others. Falsehoods communicated by people who are mistaken or self-deceived are not lies, but literal truths designed to mislead are lies. Although some scholars draw a distinction between deceiving and lying we use the terms interchangeably."

"Lying is a fact of everyday life. Studies in which people kept daily diaries of all their lies suggest that people tell an average of one or two lies a day." - from an article titled, "Cues to Deception" in The Psychological Bulletin, Vol. 129. Author: Bella M. DePaulo, et al. Dated 2003.

I don't know, but only one or two seems kind of low to me.

seven eleven

Something I just recently discovered but find very amusing is this: At every 7-11 (or at least every one that I've been to recently), at the door, there is a ruler. That is, markings for height, so that apparently it's easier for the cashier to call in to the police with useful information about assailants/thieves. Look for it, seriously. They're always there.

Preparedness

I am so not ready.